I can’t say much of anything. I can’t guilt you out of a decision that only you have the final say in. I can’t begin to know your situation. I can’t guess why you feel this way. I can’t make everything better for you. I can’t guarantee that everything will be better in a bit, because honestly, everything won’t be. I can’t convince you, I know.
But I can be here to talk, and I can be here to help you through it. I can be here to remind you of a few things: Things aren’t ever going to be easy. That isn’t the point. The point is finding some good in all that is wicked. The point is not to be totally satisfied, because how much fun would that be? It’s impossible to be completely satisfied; it is the essence of human nature to always want more. Life is full of adventures, so go out and try one rather than praying to just be happy, praying that something will finally give. Nothing will change unless you make it. Live a little. Explore a bit, discover something about yourself that you never knew. Go try something new and write about it. Find the little things. You’ll look back and appreciate them most some day.
No matter the size, or age, or race, or number of loved ones, no matter what, all life is important. A lot of things are going to be crap, for the rest of your life. But the more you look up, the more the good will outweigh the bad. I know that saying “just be positive” won’t do a darn thing, but it’s true. Even the slightest positivity goes a long way. I know I sound stupid and too hopeful, but that’s because I am. I am a big believer in hope no matter what I go through. It keeps me going. What if i were to die today? What if tomorrow was going to be the best day of my life? I would never know. So, as ridiculous as this sounds, I just hope a lot.
I think that you can get through this. I think that anyone can get through anything because there’s always a little bit more strength than you believe. It’s sort of like why infinity exists; you can always add one more. It seems strange, but it’s true and makes sense when you think about it. No matter how beaten down you are, I truly believe that there is a little more strength than you previously thought. So pick yourself up, brush yourself off, and attack the things that are attacking you, because you’re worth a life of happiness. Everyone is.
Maybe this is all a bunch of bull and cliches to you, I don’t know. But don’t let your problems become who you are, darling. Every life is precious.
I am going to make a pact with anyone who read this. You don’t have to say anything to me, it can just be a little unmentioned rope tied between us:
1) I will ALWAYS be here for ANYONE who needs to talk. I mean anyone. No matter what. I’ll try and help, and if I can’t help, I can listen. My ask is always open.
2) We can keep trying, together.
If there is absolutely nothing I can do, please, call this number: 1-800-273-8255 (U.S. number)
Click here: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
Not good enough?
You’re wrong. You are incredible as you are. No one is perfect, so no one should have to try to be. Don’t give in to pressures and words. They are nothing. Trust me, I know how it feels to feel like nothing. You are wonderful. Some peoples’ standards are hideous, not you. Don’t let people get to you. There are billions of people in this world. You were made for someone, as they were made for you. Being alone doesn’t make you “ugly,” being different doesn’t make you “ugly.” Who is to say what “beautiful” is, anyway? It can mean a million different things. It is all open to interpretation. Some people just interpret it in a hurtful way, unfortunately. Do not let that stop you from pushing forward. You are worth it. You are good enough, and better. You wouldn’t be you without some flaws. Don’t strive to be anything more or less than who you are. Don’t let people mold you into their puppet, that’s what they want. You’re better than that.
One last thing: I don’t care about who you are, or what you look like. I don’t care about where you’ve been, or what you’ve seen or done. You are a person. And that in itself makes you worth the world.
If you need someone to talk to:
More helpful links - These should help take your mind off things, help you relax, etc. (I will add more as I come across them):